Sunday, September 14, 2008

the good life


I'd have to declare that all is well around these parts. Sir O has been good (and cute), school seems to be going well for Mr Renn, our biannual health insurance nightmare is behind us, and the belly monster continues to get stronger all the time. My blood pressure and subsequently my energy level have been frustratingly low, so I haven't been able to be nearly as productive as I'd like, but Mr Renn is always coming up with new things for me to try to remedy the situation. The other night my back pain got so intense that he was worried I might have kidney stones, so I had to drink over a liter of water. That was fun. Ah, to be pregnant. It's such a funny thing, I wanted it so badly, I am so grateful for it, and yet it is none fun. And I have such a long while yet to be pregnant. And that's just for this one.
*sigh*. You know, the ironic happy kind.

(Sir O tossing his hat at the camera for the 43rd time)

We've just wrapped up Stake Conference and I've got a sincere desire to set some goals and try to do some good. I have to deal with the reality of my low energy levels though, and that's being a very real obstacle for me right now. I'm feeling a bit hopeless and hedged in by the fact that I have to sit down and breathe deeply for 5 out of every 15 minutes. I'll bring it up at my Doctor's appointment again tomorrow, but so far they haven't been concerned. You know, it's normal for pregnant ladies to be tired, and they seem content to advise me to pass Oliver off to someone (whom?) and rest when I need to. But I need to rest all the time. This is not working. I keep reminding myself I will have more energy once the baby is born. It will probably get cancelled out by sleep deprivation, but it is my only hope.
This kid deserves some better mothering than what I've been able to give lately. Luckily God seems to manage tremendous equalization and somehow my best is good enough, even when it's pathetically demonstrated from the couch. Lucky me.

8 comments:

--jeff * said...

here's to the "happy, tired" sighs...

sir o seems to be growing wonderfully and loving life; and by their fruits ye shall know them....

hats off to you and mr renn, especially if that hat is thrown by sir o.

Methodical wormer said...

I'm glad things are going better! I'm right there with you on the exhausted parenting. I need to remember to thank Heavenly Father for making up for where I'm lacking.

Martha said...

Oh em, I didn't know you were so tired. I don't know if it will help, but I added salt to my diet (ate a pickle once a day!) and eat a little more protein in the morning/early afternoon, and that has seemed to help my raise my low blood pressure. I'm sure what you're dealing with is much more intense right now, but maybe it might help in some small way! ;)

sir o is such a cute little boy... I'm so glad that he's doing well and that Mr. Renn is enjoying school. That's always a good thing!! Also, when I was struggling with my heart and low energy, I found it quite helpful to thank Heavenly Father daily for the energy I did have and the things I was able to accomplish... it seemed to make a difference in my life. I would even write down my blessings, and that was a great reminder of His hand in my life.

Love you, em. You're doing a great job at desiring to be a good mom!!

hairyshoefairy said...

Yes, yes, yes. I feel the same way about being a pregnant mommy. It's so difficult sometimes. I'm glad they won't be too scarred by it. We had Stake Conf. today, too. Very good and, like you, I wish I had the energy to act upon it.

The pictures are darling.

Krystal said...

Dont be to hard on yourself. Sorry I'm a little late on the Congrats!!! I haven't had a computer, so I'm just seeing things now. So another Boy. HOw fun. Any names? YOu know me I love to hear names. Sir O will love being the big brother.

Chris said...

Em, I knew you would be a good mom! Yankees hats are bad for your health. Red Sox hats on the other hand look great on your "boys"

-Chris

The McGowan's said...

Congratulations on another little BOY on the way! Sorry this is a little late ... we haven't had the internet for what feels like forever, so I am just finding things out now. Looks like things are going well. I love Oliver and Renns matching hats :)

Kori said...

Believe you me, Em, you are not the inventor of "couch mothering" and you'll be surprised at how good you are at it by the time you are done nursing your 2nd born!

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