Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Confounded balance

I think I've gotten as much out of that "break" as I'm going to get.

I cheated plenty, but it was nice to not feel like I "had to" read and comment everything that was written.

And it seems like there is a general consensus that reading the blogs of particularly talented people actually freezes up the talents of the reader. It's too overwhelming, and makes a reader feel like their own paltry talents/interests/cute kids could never measure up.
So I'm going to have to scale WAY back on that sort of reading.

And I can tell that blogging has tremendous potential to accomplish good things. It's a great way to document and share the things that make life meaningful. But just like any great and constructive tool, there's a million ways for things to turn sour. So I have to be careful.

Again it's all about balance. And maybe more than that being ready to sense when things are out of balance and take immediate action to rectify it.
And since life is not static, that means taking constant action to try to strike balance, or close to balance.

There you have it.

I don't take nearly enough pictures when I'm not blogging, so there's at least one good reason to keep it up.

In other news, Mr Renn survived the first week of the hardest year of Dental School. I've been packing his lunches, and I feel much better about what he is eating now. Sir Oliver has erupted in a mysterious rash all over his face and torso (but no fever), and the doctor's office was closed all weekend. I can't get a hold of them for another hour and a half. You know, mom/wife stuff.

I've been feeling resentful of the feminist movement lately, frustrated that it was socially unacceptable for me to do any serious preparing for mom/wife-ness. I'm managing, but hate feeling constantly unprepared.


Katie May said...

"I'm managing but hate feeling constantly unprepared."

Boy, do I hear you! I was just telling Clayton that on Saturday.

I hope that you figure out the source of the rash. Poor Oliver! Hope he (and you) get to feeling better soon.

tracy m said...

I hope Sir O is ok- my kids periodically get weird rashes, and so far, none of them have been scary stuff... just passing.

Really good to hear from you again- I know about that ballance thing. I have to do the same thing.

Vanessa and Rebecca said...

I think that regardless of everything you learn or don't learn before motherhood/wifehood you are never prepared for it.

Poor Sir O!! Hopefully it will pass soon.

As for balance. I found that the only way for me to keep sane with bloggin and such is to keep it simple. I have a list of 5 people that i visit, other than family, because their situations are so similar to mine. These people who by reading their blogs I feel refreshed, validated and uplifted in reading. It's like a "whew! I'm not the only one going through that!" thing as well ok she'd understand what I'm going through thing. There are more things that are fun for me to read and I do periodically but I had to stick with the balance thing too. Good luck to you.
Just think this is a journal for your kids. Kevin's mom kept one of his growning up years and gave it to us on our wedding day. We stayed up late (amoungst other activities) reading his little antics that he did as a kid. It was awesome and I'm so printing my entries out and storing them for when my kids get married.

tracy m said...

nestle- I do the same thing- print out my blog pages at the end of the month and save them for my kids. I've had to switch to thinking about blogging as documenting thier lives, not as something to have lots of readers. It makes it fun, and keeps me ballanced.

Deena said...

I'm glad you're showing your face again.

Oliver gets more handsome every time you post. I hope he learns to run fast because he's going to have girls chasing him all over!

Brittany said...

It is so nice to know that there are others out there that have that same "what am I doing" feeling that I all too often get. You have no idea how much comfort I get from your words.

Angela said...

I'm perplexed. I've seen many a rash in my day... but never one like that. Be sure to tell us what it is.

Confounded balance indeed. A constant stuggle in my life and in most people's lives I think.

Melissa said...

I found you through the LDS Women's Blog list :) I am trying to find balance... but most days are a total bust. I have found that google reader is really helping with the blog reading. I can go there, read the new entries all in one place and then if I want to comment, I just click on the link. Maybe you already do that, but it's just a thought :)

hairyshoefairy said...

Oh, he's such a sweet little guy! That rash doesn't look fun. I hope it goes away soon.

If you ever figure out the balance thing will you let me in on the secret. Just when I think I've figured it out, I get all out of whack again. In the mean time I just do what I have to in order get by when things are tough. Sometimes that includes cutting back on my internet time. Other times, like Nestle wrote, that's the only thing that keeps me semi-sane. Good luck! ((hugs))

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