Tuesday, July 06, 2010

running in sand

This pregnancy is kicking my trash.  I've already gained more weight than I did with Sir O's entire pregnancy. I'm 26 weeks and still nauseous, and I was up all night battling what was probably kidney stones.

Then I "woke" up in the morning to (cute) hollering kids who aren't capable of caring that I haven't one iota of energy left for them.

I really just want to be a functional mom again.  Someday, maybe by December, right?  I was hoping to take Sir O to library story time today, but there is absolutely no way I can even get out of bed, save to refill my 32 oz mug of water for the 18th time and then go cry in the bathroom.

In the meantime, I am praying for some kind of amnesiac fog to settle in my kids' brains and compensate for my many many failings just now.

Temple Quarry Trail


Deena said...

Hang in there lady. I'm sorry about the kidney stones. ugh. It's times like these that I'm extra grateful for TV and videos to entertain the kids. And kids don't remember stuff like this.

aLi said...

ohh I could cry with you! I agree on the amnesia part, I sure hope Conrad doesn't remember how awful a mom I have been. It sucks, I am so sorry. Thanks for your comment on my blog. It is nice to be validated.
Try to just take it moment by moment. Instead of one day at a time, that can seem daunting at your point.

Vanessa and Rebecca said...

Oh honey I feel you! I agree with the whole amnesia thing. I haven't felt this bad with a pregnancy EVER and I feel like I should be able to handle it. I didn't know I would feel this grateful that my MIL is in town for a full month before the birth (10 more days). I think though when we do our best the Lord makes up the rest. I just hope this helpless/pain feeling goes away. Have dh move the tv and kids books to your bedroom so you can stay in bed and they can join you. You don't feel so horrible that way and they seem to be ok with it. Stay strong!!! loves

Aby Runyan said...

Oh how I remember feeling exactly like that. I was SUCH a grumpy awful mom for most of this pregnancy. And YES their brains will totally forget, you don't even need to pray about it - it's guaranteed!

luvs, aby

Lauren and Tyson Fiala said...

For some reason it is weird to me that you are in Utah now, I keep thinking you are in PA and you are not! And Renn is a doctor! Life changes fast. I hope you are feeling ok. I don't think you need to worry that you have gained more weight, you are so dang skinny.

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